I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think: was I the same when I got up this morning?

Deep sigh of relief. He loved it. Dearest Dormouse why must you panic at the littlest of things? You know that essay was beautifully put together. You know that he respects your opinions otherwise he would not have expressed an interest in reading the aforementioned essay. And most of all Dormouse you understand that you're intelligent, you know your shit, and there was no reason to believe that he would think anything else. I think, my dear Dormouse, that we really need to sit down and think about the way you value yourself.

In other, different news, tonight we're going to think about...Peter Pan?

"Dormouse," you are undoubtedly wondering, "why are we going to think about Peter Pan tonight?"

Well, I'm glad you asked. You see Peter has been showing up in my life lately. We were tasked with reading the story of the Boy Who Would Not Grow Up for one of those pesky (but terribly wonderful) literature classes I take as part of my never ending quest to obtain a useless degree. And in reading his story I fell in love with Peter all over again. I confess, he was the first boy I ever fell in love with as a young girl. There was just something about Peter that I found so intoxicating. But no matter how in love you are with Peter you know he's going to break your heart. You know he'll never grow up and you will and inevitably he'll leave you because you are a grown woman and he will never be a grown man. I find though that this is perhaps what I like best about Peter. He is someone on whom I can depend to break my heart. Now, does that seem odd? That I would love that I can depend on him to break my heart?

Peter and I have a complicated relationship. Well, as complicated a relationship as one can possibly have with a fictional character. But then I suppose one can have a truly complicated relationship with someone who doesn't exist, especially if one is in love with him. Maybe if I look at the way I love the Peter I can find the explanation for the way I love the only other man in my life I have allowed to break my heart with the consistency Peter does. But that I think is a complication for another time. I think for now I will allow you to draw your own conclusions. Until next time...

-The Dormouse